I have a hottie hubby who has an awesome job that allows me to stay home and live pretty comfortably:
I have the most adorable kid:
I really like my house and the town in which I live.
I've made some pretty awesome girlfriends who share my love of thai food.
On the surface my life looks pretty awesome, and for the most part it is. But there are feelings that I keep hidden. Things that bother me, dreams I have yet to accomplish that sometimes seem unattainable, emotions that seem unbearable at times...and today I found myself thinking I bet we all have these "secrets" that we tell no one. Not even our beloved hubbies for fear they won't really understand.
Maybe I'm too introspective, but sometimes I get lost in these feelings and have to pull myself out of the funk. Oh I'm not depressed or anything like that...I usually get lost in my "secrets" following some sort of event that bums me out or makes me start thinking that even the most "perfect" lives have tragedy and heartbreak. I guess it makes us stronger, more well-rounded people in the long run, but when you're in the moment of it, it just sucks. Sometimes I question God. Sometimes I wonder if God and I can have a "come to Jesus" meeting, but that seems a bit ironic, right?
So, "that mom" fans (all six of you!), do you have secrets too?
YES!! But if I told you it wouldn't be one! We allllllll have those days and thoughts! Its part of the joys of being a stay at home mom!
ReplyDeleteYes!! I think of the things I could've done, should've done, would LIKE to do, and it's always in the past or the future because of being a stay-at-home mom right now. I think we all have those inner most secrets and maybe we can't act on them now or ever, but it's part of being human and being well-rounded I think. It's good to want to know more, explore more, desire more, even that's within ourselves. I love your mommy blog!
ReplyDeleteAww Shan... We all have things that bother us, things we wish we could change, things that frustrate us, and the whole bit! We all get "down on ourselves," we all get in a "funk" sometimes, we all have challenges. I'm certain. The more I get to know people, the more I realize that we all have unique talents and unique challenges. Don't ever feel alone in these things!
ReplyDeleteIn fact, I'm in a total funk this week! I can't get motivated on my "to do list" and I have tiny little things that are nagging at my emotions, getting me down. Then after the funk, we all experience the guilt... because we are blessed and we think we have no right to feel deprived in any way.
I just wanted to say that I HEAR YA!
I guess the trick is learning how to rise above, move on and smile.
SIng with me now.....These are a few of my favorite things......
Love ya!